Okay so what, I fell? Everyone falls, and you get up. Okay I'm getting up. Its hard, because I fell hard. I've met the jerk, the stalker, the sleaze, the NICE GUY, and finally last but not least the flirt. I had never met a charmer , a master of words who makes you feel like you are not just another girl{but you are :( }. I fell for him , just like i did for the nice guy. Why did he have to move? I could have had the nice guy. Enough about the nice guy, but he was soooo nice. :D Okay here is how I FELL Stupid CUPID hit me i didn't know what had hit me (till now) i just looked @ him as another guy another guy that i had no time for Well he sure made a mark, a big ol bruise. lol a black,green, & purple long lasting bruise. The scary thing is that i have never felt this(which i can't describe) before. NEVER. NEVA! I don't know why but one day my <3 did something. It jumped when I saw him and I felt something and I said.........."what time is it?" LOL I could not think of something. Me , yah YAH SUS-SAY at a loss of words. I usually can't stop blabbering. SIDE NOTE: I believe that your voice is everything. IT IS! Your voice, your beliefs, your ideals make you ,YOU. It defines who you are , who you will be. That is my new nickname, pen name SUS-SAY. Because SUSANA, AKA SUSY, SUZY, SUSIE, or however you want to spell because I really don't care (okay i prefer susy) how you spell it just pronounce it right. HA! I used to be more cautious when speaking my mind, but now I realized that I can not please others so I might as well be true to myself and see what happens. SO say what you feel, what you believe! :) I love it!! I feel better that I do not censor myself as much. okay back to how I FELL! See i'm blabbering......okay little by little I just realized that I loved talking about him. I would get this really good feeling whenever I talked about him. It was so weird for me, like i said I have never felt this feeling. Even though I knew that he did not fit my "type" (i don't believe in types but I mean the characteristics of the guys I am attracted to) Usually clean cut, dark hair, distinctive face features, and gorgeous eyes. jaja I'm kidding. But BUT, I really don't like that word BUT, BUTT :P I'm a face girl. :) I hate when he looks at me, I would call it staring. YUP staring, before I would love it, I would get excited. Now , I still like it but know better. I wish I knew what he felt, if anything at all. I never know when someone genuinely likes me. Someone usually needs to tell me because I usually do not see it. I'm so clueless when it comes to guys. I know one thing, I need to focus on SUS-SAY. ME! I think I am making some progress. I AM. :) :) oh shiza! i better have not jinxed myself!! ❤ SUS_SAY })i({
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