Weird......

I said this to someone who is gay but not for that reason, but they took it diff/hard. The result them saying it back to me and it hurt. Since this person has witnessed my cataplexy attacks and I know he was referring to them. It was a blow to my big ol heart. I can't change my brain, just like him. I consider him a friend or a sister lol. "See, I'm a good sister"-{my friend} I think the word "WEIRD" was the issue. It's a big no no for them. Immediately they take it as if I'm talking about their sexual preference. Hello, I'm very passionate when it comes to this subject. My mom being brought up Catholic is always on the other end. Plus I've gone to PRIDE.  I've said the word "weird" to another person that was gay and I could tell it was a word that he did not like hearing. I felt bad. I bet the word brings back bad memories....... so next time I want to use weird, I'm going to use strange..........Stop being STRANGE! :P 

Love, SUS-SAY ,sleeping beauty.

Healthwhocares?

Lucky me, I get the clowns who don't listen to me. If only they would open their heart and ears! I don't understand....donde vivo? I think my first time to MX will be sooner than planned but not for vacay. For una examinacion medica. To finally know whats up! I shouldn't be surprised, they basically drug you up to "fix" you. They at least got some of it right but at no avail let their ignorance shine. Lack of knowledge does not mean one can ignore the matter...es inevitable guey! :P

Robbed unexpectedly.....

I was the little girl who enjoyed to dance. 
If you called jumping up and down to music dancing. :D
I was the teenager that loved to laugh.
The one who would lay in bed, lights off supposedly to go to bed and would have laugh offs with her twin sister.
I am the girl who loves people......
Feeling is what makes us humane/human.
My cataplexy robs me.
To feel is to live.
What if you don't want to feel for fear of falling(fig and lit) :(

The Culprit: My brain
Narcolepsy w/ Cataplexy

Enjoy your day and feel. Feel for me and others like me.

Fan no mo?!

Check it. When you begin to feel something more than just admiration for their talent. Ay caramba! Typical, had to like like one of my favorite artists. Music literally saved me. Stromae and Jessie J helped me see that life is precious and took me out of a dark place. My "music" never meshes w/  mon coeur. My heart. Feel like I've gotten to know more about him(YouTube vids) and slowly realized my feelings changed. So I feel as if I have no choice but to take a long break from watching his latest YouTube videos,  and checking his Twitter/ Facebook. It's so hard for me to bend or break my rules. UGH! I feel so wrong for liking him! But hey there are exceptions, right? :/  Love for his music, now love for him. His passion that he shows for his music and for his supporters/fans is so moving. He stays true to himself and.......WOW gush a little....Sus-say! See I'm a lost cause. ;(  Imma go SouthPacific on y'all! :P

Dites-moi

Pourquoi

La vie est belle,

Dies-moi

Pourquoi

La vie est gai,

Dites-moi

Pourquoi,

Cher singe,

Est-ce que

Parce que

  Vous m’aimez?           

Sus-say )}i{(

                       

BEEEEEEEP!

Yesterday on the way to school , we almost saw an accident. Some guy was walking across the street and then some guy turns and didn't stop until the young man had to jump and make his presence known. Get this the old fat man with the cigarette in mouth was mad at the young man. Like if it was his fault or if to say that if you are walking/on the street you are worthless. My sister and I were livid. I wanted to yell at the guy, people are so careless when driving. So many don't know how to make a turn at the light. You are in the first lane so you stick to last one in near the median not switch over to the second! People should learn how to drive correctly and to be considerate of those who HAVE the right of way. Everyday its a challenge, people don't know how to drive. They have become lazy, yep they can't reach up to move their signal stick up or down. Not everyone has telepathic powers! :P Another pet peeve when driving huge NO NO for me, people on their cellies/cells/ CELLPHONES. Just hang up.Thank you. It seems that everyone doing this is older not younger people. Old people and cellphones don't mix well. First they may have a slower reaction time and also the distraction of the phone. Most of the times I am almost in an accident is a cause of a person on their damn cellphone! Sorry I'm just so passionate over this issue; I saw a special about some parents losing their daughter because someone was driving and talking on their cell. How many more innocent kids have to die so you can put down your phone. Everyday when driving I see someone yakking away to their phone. When did we get so WIRED? Disconnect yo! :P You will hear me screaming "Get off your phone" while driving or whenever I'm the passenger. lol My mom says "They can't hear you". In my mind......... "They will, eventually, hopefully before its too late. 

Worry....WORT!!!

Okay happy new year 2013 cheyeahaa! Another year to better or improve oneself. Well I tend to worry just a little okay OKAY A LOT. I can't help it! I'm not really busy and have my mind occupied by other stuff, so my worry creeps in. It scares the bejesus of me, I can't shake it off. I usually can but I have the anxiety/fear/worry inside of me and I try to silence my inner thoughts but with no avail. Lucky me, it eventually left me thank god , was afraid it was going to eat at me. Gnawwwwing inside of me. Aghhh. :P Ha! Just got up from a little nap.....Was trying to get up because I got BANG shot. Yup, my nightmares/paranoia are always about that. Some cholos getting me, living in da hood, scares me ..... that it takes me a couple a minutes or less to regain full knowledge of where I am. Its terrifying truly because I'm walking well attempting to because I'm spooked! Seems like a punishment honestly, I was the girl who loved to laugh and love watching comedies now I'm forced to see scary things, not on the big screen but in my own vivid imagination...my nightmares/night terrors. Well I have once again babbled....Well in short ha this year means new beginnings and here's my mantra : Worrywort ya gonna end up short. The less I worry about things the more I will proceed with whatever needs to be done and I won't get the short end of the stick because I actually attempted. Get at it! :P

R.E.S.P.E.C.T.!

I suppose that leadership at one time meant muscle; but today it means getting along with people. - Indira Gandhi


Do I have a "be mean to me" sign on my back?! I don't think so! 
One word: KARMA! :P
Look around you, you decide how you feel and your mood/demeanor affects those around you. Moods are contagious, so splash on a smile. FORGET about the frown for now! :P